Standing Firm

What does “standing firm” mean? It means standing your ground, refusing to abandon your beliefs, take a firm stand, and refuse to budge or be moved… I could go on with the meanings but I trust you get the picture. It is a fairly straight forward statement. In times of trouble it can be difficult to stand your ground. Fear and anxiety knock on your door and threaten to derail your faith. Challenges can seem so HUGE that you don’t know how you are going to face them. Stepping out in faith or standing in faith at this point seems impossible, feels like a waste of time. You feel like giving up, helpless even. But I urge you not to lose your faith. Exodus 14:13 “Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today.” Today may not be TODAY, but your today is coming! Your deliverance is coming! Refuse to be shaken out of your faith…stand firm! Do not lose faith!

1 Corinthians 16:13 Be on your guard, stand firm in the faith, be courageous, be strong.

Overcoming Worry and Fear

Life always seems to bring us something new to worry about each day. We worry about our jobs, our families, our lives, almost everything that matters to us brings us some form of worry at one point. We worry about the possibility of things going wrong or things not going the way we want them to. We worry about the possibility of things not happening for us at all! It seems we move from one worry to the other.

As I get closer to giving birth, I find myself thinking about the day I give birth. I worry about the possibility of things going wrong. What if my baby doesn’t make it? I find the past trying to overwhelm me. I fear not being able to recover if that were to happen. But the thing is, I cannot let those kind of thoughts take over my mind. I cannot allow my mind to dwell on negativity. Maybe it’s just me, but I find most of the times, the mind is conditioned to think negatively. I find myself battling this “conditioning”, replacing the negative with the positive.

I have spent the last year or so, teaching myself to focus on the positive, on the good things in life. I have spent time “reconditioning” my mind. Thus today I find myself looking forward to the day I give birth. I look forward to seeing my daughter! I look forward to spending time with her, nurturing her and being a mother! I am at peace knowing that in a couple of months my daughter will be here. I thank God for giving me the strength to overcome my worries and my fears. I also thank my husband who has been my support, my strength and my prayer warrior. I could not have done it alone.

Romans 12: 2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

Random Thoughts….Peace or Love

So here I am by my desk, minding my own business when I started thinking of beauty pageants. Like really now, beauty pageants!! Since when does my mind wonder about such things. Just one question popped in my head really. The famous question that always ends with the contestants saying they want world peace.

So what is peace? Peace can be defined as harmony, reconciliation, ceasefire, goodwill, calm, quiet, stillness… the list goes on and on. Think of the number of times you have said you “choose to hold your peace”. What exactly did you really mean? For me, not you maybe, but for me it has just meant that I choose to keep quiet. I choose to keep quiet even though it hurts so bad inside, even though all I want to do is scream and let it all out. I choose to maintain my calm even though a storm is brewing on the inside. That’s how I “chose to hold my peace”. So is it possible world peace can be like that? Countries choosing to hold their calm even though they are hurting or feeling disrespected? Let me ask a question, what happens when we can no longer hold the peace? I think peace can sometimes be a cover, a face we wear to hide what’s inside. Peace does not necessarily lead to forgiveness or love.

Let me move on to love. Love can be defined as affection, adoration, tenderness, friendship, fondness, devotion… again the list goes on. Love comes along with forgiveness. Think about it for a moment. When you love someone or something so much, and that someone or something hurts you, you can be mad for a while, but it doesn’t mean you now hate that person. In a little while you have forgiven them and you’re soon laughing with them again. Such is the cycle of love, it hurts sometimes but you forgive and soon the matter is forgotten. How can you love and continue to bear a grudge? How can it be love when there’s the danger of a storm coming? If you are filled with love inside, how do you hide it? You can’t help it, it just shows! It flows into everything you do, in everything you say.

So with my humble opinion expressed, world peace or world love, how would you answer the question?

I Corinthians 13: 13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Random Thoughts….Life

Have you ever felt like the life you’re living is not yours? This is really not how you pictured living your life at all. Remember when you were young and you had such great and mighty dreams and you pictured your life being so grand and beautiful? Or was that just me? You saw yourself living in this big house with a big yard, driving the car of your dreams and getting the most out of your life. I must admit I saw all these things for myself. I saw a big house, fancy car, married with beautiful kids and having the means to do more with my life.

In all this, I never pictured a life full of disappointment and constant hurt and confusion. I never pictured a life where I felt I had no other choice but to endure what was coming my way. People say you have the power to change your circumstances by the things you do or say, but have you ever felt this was just words being said to make you feel worse about your circumstance? What if you have been trying your best, does it mean it hasn’t been good enough? Does it mean you are a loser and have no hopes and ambitions? It is in these times that I ask myself if God is testing me or it’s the devil playing cruel tricks on me.

In times like these I find myself constantly battling to keep my faith strong. The hurt and disappointment grows into giants. It must be how the spies sent out by Israel to spy out Canaan felt. Numbers 13 31 But the men that went up with him said, we be not able to go up against the people; for they are stronger than we. 32 And they brought up an evil report of the land which they had searched unto the children of Israel, saying, The land, through which we have gone to search it, is a land that eateth up the inhabitants thereof; and all the people that we saw in it are men of a great stature. 33 And there we saw the giants, the sons of Anak, which come of the giants: and we were in our own sight as grasshoppers, and so we were in their sight. It was one man who had faith, only one who saw things different. Caleb the son of Jephunneh, of the tribe of Judah, in Numbers 13 verse 30 And Caleb stilled the people before Moses, and said, Let us go up at once, and possess it; for we are well able to overcome it.

Sometimes the trials feel like they are giants and I am just a grasshopper. But I pray that God gives me strength to be like Caleb.

Luke 17: 6 And the Lord said, If ye had faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye might say unto this sycamine tree, Be thou plucked up by the root, and be thou planted in the sea; and it should obey you.

Random Thoughts….Stolen Joy

Today is just one of those days that I’m feeling down. You’ll find it hard to believe that I woke up feeling happy and at peace with the world. My morning was bright and full of life. All it took to get me down was someone’s terrible mood and attitude. It’s easy to walk away from a person like this, but unfortunately I have to spend the whole day with this person. I have to deal with their anger and short temper. Unfortunately, or sadly, this happens more often than I enjoy. I let some person spoil my day. I spend my day asking myself why I let this happen.

We all have that one person that we feel is always or constantly trying to steal our joy. No matter what we do… smile, crack jokes or laugh, it never seems to be able to lift that person’s mood. In fact, they react opposite to how you want them to react. They become meaner, they snarl at you and funny enough, or not so funny enough, they talk to everyone else but you.

I am tired of having to feel I did something wrong when I haven’t done anything wrong. Today I make a resolution…I will not allow anyone to steal my joy. If you want to spend the day being moody and angry, go ahead, that’s you! I refuse to let someone drag me down with them. The Bible says the joy of the Lord is my strength and that every day is a day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it. So who are you or who am I not to rejoice?

Let me rephrase the first sentence…today is just one of those days that I WAS feeling down.