It has been a long time since I wrote anything…I have no excuses! So many thoughts are going through my head as I watch my daughter sleeping. She has grown so much and amazes me everyday. As I have said before, having her in my life has made me see myself and my relationship with God in a new light.
Being a mother has exposed my weaknesses, the greatest being impatience. As my daughter is growing more independent, I find myself getting more impatient. She wants what she wants, not what I want for her. She can’t understand when I steer her away from danger, she throws little tantrums, and the minute I put her down she wants to go back to the same place. This is where my frustration starts setting in and I have to constantly remind myself that she is a baby and doesn’t understand.
Let me get back to my point. “She wants what she wants, not what I want for her.” Wow, how many times have I done that…wanting what I want and not what God wants for me. How many times has He pointed me in the right direction, but I have turned the other way to pursue my own things? The Bible says God has plans for me, plans to prosper me, not to harm me. How many times have I failed to trust God and trust His plans for me?
My prayer is for God to forgive the many times I’ve done my own thing.
Jeremiah 29:11 KJV For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord , thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Psalms 46:10 KJV Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.